Sunday, December 8, 2013

Hope Restored.

Linking up with Fine Linen and Purple for "What I Wore Sunday."



(They didn't actually wear their Christmas pjs to Mass...but they do look awfully cute in them, no?)

My hope is restored.

Today was the first time that I went to Mass and felt such peace and such hope knowing that there is a good chance that I am finally on the road to recovery. I'm still experiencing pain and discomfort from the stent, but the events of Friday, covered as they are by God's fingerprints, give me such hope. God willing, there will soon be a time when I won't be in pain every day, and that time may be sooner than I originally thought. God is so, so good.

Also, I love this picture because they look like such sisters in this picture. Such similiar, silly little expressions.



These girls have been what's kept me going. How could they not?

Especially this little face.



I have learned so much this year about not letting fear control my life. The past year has been so difficult - from the hyperemesis pregnancy to PPD and a baby with reflux and the kidney stones (including the craziness of two surgeries in the span of two weeks!) and, as it turns out...all of the above is probably linked. From the analysis of the first stone that was surgically removed, it definitely looks as if diet (especially a crazy hyperemesis diet) most likely played a role in the development of all those kidney stones. So, you'd think that'd make me terrified to ever be pregnant again, right?

Wrong.

I look at this little face, and I see how every minute of all of the above was worth it. I see how God can work through even the toughest situations to bring about such, such beauty and such incredible joy. She brings me such joy, each and every day.



It probably goes without saying that I am definitely hoping for some good space before the next child, so that I can have time for my body to fully heal from this one. But, I hope it also goes without saying that this child - this beautiful, joy-filled child- has made me braver than I ever thought possible. I don't know what future pregnancies will bring, but my precious Sister Nugget has shown me that I needn't be afraid. Because the immeasurable gift of a child - especially one as lovely as this bundle - is worth some struggle. It is with great nervousness that I say this...but I think I'm starting to see, more and more, that I actually can trust God.

He cares for me more than I'll ever know. And that knowledge fills me with such hope.



3 comments:

  1. Glad to know you are on the mend and you are feeling better! Those PJs look like Hanna jammies... If so we live in those at our house (and their tights!)

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  2. Jeffery was wearing those same jammies last night!

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  3. So glad you are feeling better! Yay for God's peace and trust! Beautiful reflection on the importance of trusting God...and yep..that adorable baby is so worth it!

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